Wahat in daha world!

Feeling funny... guess most of the guys really like sex. Like some of them, all they can think of is sex... I am laughing my head off - ha ha ha ha!

Ok, that's cruel :-p But guess I am giving them their karma :-p

Ok, that's really cruel.

Not wanting to do this...

But since I have a deadline to meet... I guess I should resort to plan B now... a plan that will be well executed without the harm of thinking what in the world I am doing...

Desperation...

Looking for ways to earn money for the fund raising without the hassle of going out and asking each and everyone... not sure why, but years ago, I felt ok with it... but now, I feel too old for it... staying under the baked heat of the sun simply to ask people for a minute of their attention...

And now, also cheating online... though I know I would get Karma out of this...

Reminds me, have to write a letter for ALIG sooner or later... that is my only hope...

The other one, that is, a gay man to give a donation, more like, whether possible or not...

Well... I still have my lessons... but come to think of it... also have to think of my passport... and what else? Visa... to be honest, after many years, and the times of losing my money because of some people taking it away from me, which lost my willingness to save... I recently started to save money again... P100 per earning... wow...

And I should apologize...

For no apparent reason... after confronting my cousin... and telling trusted people about what happened to my wallet... it turned up all of a sudden... what? Did I not look that hard? I mean, I was not blind... It turned up all of a sudden...! Money intact, IDs intact...

My 2nd sis said it could be: 1. Ghosts, 2. Elves, 3. My cousin

Ha ha... Elves... she said a lot of times it already happened to her... Like she lost her ring one time, then she looked around... she could not find it... so she said to no one, only inside of our room, to return the ring... later, after coming from an event, she saw the ring right on the bed.

Geez... I don't know... All I know is that I looked real hard to find my wallet. I was not blind. It was not there last Tuesday when I looked for it... then all of a sudden, it mysteriously appeared yesterday morning... Was I only blind when I was looking for it? No, can't be... Because I truly searched...

Anyway, though I still have to apologize to my cousin, my sisters said I should not give gifts, whatever, as way of saying sorry... as I already told them I would treat my cousin for this Harry Potter movie... Like saying, just let it be... still, I will say sorry, though maybe no promise of Harry Potter movie...

I lost my wallet.... I might even lose my future...

I lost my wallet... which was located inside of my bag... my bag was located inside of our room... suspect: my cousin, who happens to be a kleptomaniac... P400... four hundred pesos... plus IDs... my fucking IDs!!!! ...Voter's ID... BDO Cash Card... damn... I lost lots of things... meaning...

1. I should get new Voter's ID
2. I should get an ID to get salary from Western Union
3. Apply for a new bank account
4. Forget saving money for now, as have to make up for the lost P400
5. Return the P350 to this former student
6. Pray ill for my cousin. Hope she gets swine flu now or something.

I don't want to be angry... but I lost a lot of things... lots... like losing your future... this is not karma, I know... though, well, could be... for being mean to a boy who happened to like me very much... it just so happens that I was not careful enough...

On a good note, a friend greeted me via my Facebook wall... A friend who has not spoken to me for a long time... :-)

Still... my wallet... and the thought of thinking where to get funds... for my candidacy... And the fact that the friends of the boy, who said the people he trusted would contact me for pledges, have not made any communication whatsoever... Note: forget their pledges.

And my wallet... I have a lot of things to think of... My wallet... My wallet... My wallet... I just want to strangle my cousin for doing it... Would like to tell her to get a job or something... My wallet... may it rest in peace... Ok, think positive... it will be returned...

Atonement

Last time, instead of promoting the candidacy profile of a fellow countrywoman, I promoted the profile of a Nepalese that I could not even remember the name... and it was because of my greed to stay on the top... Up to now, I still remember what I did...

I was never number one when I was a child. Never number one in elementary, in highschool, in university... in this college, I only became number one because... people were kind... even though deep in my heart, I felt I did not deserve it... Now I am number one among fellowmen when it comes to voting, and I want to stay that way... That want that led me do something dirty...

And now, I am a candidate for this newly-established international organization... A candidate to become a delegate... and I did a dirty work...

And now that karma is happening... though I don't know what kind of karma is happening to me right now, as something bad happens and, at the same time, something good happens... I guess an atonement has to be paid by me...

I am sure this is not the way to greatness... If I truly want to become a great person... guess I have to admit my mistake... After this, I shall promote the profile of this fellow woman, who, even though truly threatens my position, deserves something good for once...

When you know it is worth fighting for...

Believing in yourself... is this true? How could it be true?

I'm in our Computer Room... which is my brother's room whenever he comes... typing this... the online radio of Wimbledon is on... my sister sometimes comes in to check the scores of the players... TV in the sala just turned off after the movie "Provoked" was played... with an actress named Rai...?

There's an insect walking on the monitor... monitor is so bright... I'm talking nonsense... guess I don't reveal what I want to reveal...

I am an aspiring candidate for the One Young World, which will be held in London, United Kingdom... in February 2010... I was having difficulties in getting votes and raising pledges... and it is because I am using my Magda accounts (the nickname that I gave to my fake accounts that I used to promote dating websites during my last job as online marketer)... I have been asking people who don't know me to vote for me... so of course, since my credibility is not yet established, of course a person wonders first whether to believe me or not... and I truly understand that... last time, I lost my temper, I thought the person asking me serious questions were asking stupid questions... so he didn't vote for me, but we got to become friends with my real account... I lost my temper easily when I know questions being asked to me are, well, questions that even the person asking those questions could answer them asap...

except today... someone pledged 3000 Euros... wow! I mean, wow... I sincerely hope it is true... because this means my chance of attending the event is truly possible... this means I should finally check my passport... Visa... I should think of those things now...

But what if the man were kidding? What could that mean?

So the battle is not yet finished... I should work harder, this means... still... the dream is still there... and with this blog post, I truly thank this guy who pledged 3000 Euros - this blog post is dedicated to you! And you know who you are!