Atonement

Last time, instead of promoting the candidacy profile of a fellow countrywoman, I promoted the profile of a Nepalese that I could not even remember the name... and it was because of my greed to stay on the top... Up to now, I still remember what I did...

I was never number one when I was a child. Never number one in elementary, in highschool, in university... in this college, I only became number one because... people were kind... even though deep in my heart, I felt I did not deserve it... Now I am number one among fellowmen when it comes to voting, and I want to stay that way... That want that led me do something dirty...

And now, I am a candidate for this newly-established international organization... A candidate to become a delegate... and I did a dirty work...

And now that karma is happening... though I don't know what kind of karma is happening to me right now, as something bad happens and, at the same time, something good happens... I guess an atonement has to be paid by me...

I am sure this is not the way to greatness... If I truly want to become a great person... guess I have to admit my mistake... After this, I shall promote the profile of this fellow woman, who, even though truly threatens my position, deserves something good for once...